3 July 2016

“Texas” goodby my love

Why do I have to endure so much pain? Why? It’s all too much! I have now had to let my beloved Texas go. The pain of the loss of his daughter Senta is still so fresh.

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Eldorado aus dem Elbe-Urstromtal  “Texas”

14-11-2005      –        01-07-2016

Since Wednesday, 22.06.2015 everything has gone wrong. On this day, Senta (Ch. No Limits from the Elbe-Urstromtal) died at only 2 years old. It was quiet in the house, my 4 dogs, Texas, Doro and her son Norman and my Bearded bitch “Prada” were calmer and quieter than usual.

Thursday morning I woke up and went downstairs to let my dog to the outside. Everything smelled badly of urine. The hallway, the living room and kitchen were covered with urine traces and my poor Texas was very wet and restless. I had the idea he was ashamed of what happened to him. I thought, oh my “old man” is a mess. Texas was as always out and lying on the terrace. There was also a lot of urine there. I was uncertain. I called Liesbeth Vanholen  (my vet) and arranged an appointment for Texas in the afternoon. Of course, I had to collect some urine, but that did not bother Texas. During the day, I noticed that he drank a lot of water and hardly lay down. He was always somewhere and wanted to constantly pee everywhere in the garden. I thought of a bladder infection or something with his Prostate. There was blood in the urine and my vet looked worried. His heart did not look good and they confirmed what I really did not  want to know, that he became old very quickly. She took a bloodsample of Texas . I had to wait for the laboratory result until the next morning. Texas was so tired from standing, he was almost asleep standing up. I wanted him to lie down so much, but he was always on the go. Meanwhile, I had brought Pampers for him and he had to run around with a diaper for him. Actually I found it unworthy of him, and his dignity as “Lion King” of Maaseik not been undermined. He had a quiet night and was lying in the hallway on his favorite spot. At 11am was the appointment with our vet. Texas was not doing well, I could see that. He got out, walked back and did it again, looking for somewhere to pee. I felt sorry for him and, slowly but surely I got scared that I might lose him. The lab report showed unfortunately a tumour in Texas’s body. The response was that he had bladder cancer and he had moisture in the abdomen. My vet is a strong woman, but she told me with tears in their eyes, they can not do anything more for Texas make and that he was in a lot of pain.

I love this dog more than anything. I would never let one of my dogs suffer  unnecessarily. I wanted to let him die with dignity and avoid unnecessary suffering. Feeling guilty, I had to let my Texas go. No one could make this decision for me, and I am inconsolable . My deeply sad vet and I have sent Texas over the rainbow bridge. My “old man” has gone.

Only going home with an empty lead from a veterinary practice, is an experience which you can do without. On the way home I had to stop my car, I was crying so much,I could no longer drive. It was just too much to bear. I have lost 2 Dogs within 8 days.

It’s so unreal here at home. I only have 3 Dogs. My 2 Bobtails Doro and her son Norman and my Beardie Prada. They are also completely messed up. Your pack leader is away, Doro and Texas were like an old married couple and Norman was the prince beside his father. Texas is missed so much, we are all in deep mourning and have to find our rhythm. In August 2015 I had 8 dogs. 3 I had to give up because my husband left me. Then I was alone with my 5 dogs who have given me much comfort in the past 10 months during this difficult time. Now I have 3 Dogs. Hopefully it’s been enough now. more I can not stand.

Texas knew what he meant, what he still means to me.

Love you “Texas”

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